Bye Daphne the Dolphin :(

Last night I realized that it had been about a week since I had last seen my childhood stuffed animal that I brought with us on our trip (just in case there was an issue with the pod). Her name is Daphne, and she is a really sweet stuffed dolphin that I have had since I was a little kid. When I was little, I brought Daphne everywhere - and sometimes usually still sleep with her.

***Side note*** Yes, I am 27. So what. ***End of side note***

When we had our (many) fire drills at our old apartment, I would always bring her and only her with me (besides Joe, she was all I cared to save). I even told Joe that I wanted Daphne buried with me when I died - this is how much I love that stinkin' stuffed animal.

Well, after looking through all of our stuff for over two hours last night, Daphne isn't with us. We called the hotels we stayed at, and no one has seen her.

Daphne is gone :(

I was so devastated that I couldn't post last night (I was crying too hard). I could barely sleep. When I did sleep, I ground my teeth and had nightmares. When I thought about her today (which was frequent), my heart hurt and my eyes stung with tears.

I feel so stupid because she is a STUFFED ANIMAL - but she is the most important thing from my childhood and I can't believe she is gone just like that. I told Joe that I would have rather had anything else (including my wedding ring) get lost over her. I, honestly, would pay $10,000 to get her back.

I am absolutely miserable, and this feels like it will be a dark cloud over our road trip. I am afraid that whenever I think back to our trip I'll be sad, because I'll know that because of this road trip Daphne was lost.

Yes, I am being dramatic. I had some wine to help drown my sorrows, which was a mistake because wine always makes me cry when I have too much of it. I am so miserable right now. I want to crawl up in the fetal position and cry and cry and cry.

I'll post our stories from yesterday and today later. Maybe tomorrow. Right now, I just want to go to bed.

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